Narcissism Anonymous

4/16/2016

Today, we have a Touhou group. (Oh wow, such a surprise you are so original.)

This group's name is Akatsuki Records or 暁Records just the kanji.

Now, their vocalist, Stack. Reminds me so much of Otome of Buta-Otome who is another Touhou group. It just has to be their voices. I'll post a Buta-Otome song tomorrow.

Anyway, this song has everything Stack loves, long notes, her own laugh, and her AMAZING ENGRISH. Most people don't like Engrish, but I think I've desensitized myself to it so now I just either giggle or love it. I know Stack fucking rocks that Engrish. Especially in the bridge of the song.

You guys also got a pretty PV to watch too, look how generous your god is. 

This song is an Arrange of Septette of the Dead Princess ~ Remilia Scarlet's Theme Song

Akatsuki Records - TOP SECRET -My Red World-

Zx!!! ... I realize this is a music blog and not a normal one, but I wasn't sure where to post. XD


Happy Birthday!!! *v*

... hopefully this looks somewhat how it should, lol ;-; I tried to go off what you said xD;

OMFG ZX SORRY. I fixed the picture in my last post up there ^  ... I suck at linking from my phone ;.;  eheheheh...howembarrassing >o<

I hope you like it!

05/12/2016

There really isn't much to say. These songs just remind me of my most beloved influence on my life.

Or you know none of the links could work that's fine too. Fuck it ill put em in later.

/ FELT - Moonlight Shines

/ Crest - Stardust Dreams

/ C-Clays - Prayer

/ TaNaBaTa - Unknown Girl 

/ EastNewSound - Beneath the Scarlet Moon, The Crazed Blossoms' Severance

06/10/2016 

#NEVERFORGET 6/10/16

Today really was a good day...




GET FUCKED KOTAKU!

(Thread for the game in the background)
www.ulmf.org/bbs/archive/index.php?t-26107.html

Science. I waited 2 years for this amazing science.

The game is really good by the way.

First of all Zx, thank you for sharing. This is definitely a really personal entry, which is something I don't see from you very often. I always wondered about the story behind Flandre and you, but knowing that it was extremely personal ... I felt odd asking directly and didn't want to seem annoying or nosy.

Second: man, what the hell... knowing this all now makes me more irritated that the mail evidently hates me. I've tried to mail you three times now, but ... I get the feeling that since you never told me you actually got it, it probabaly never got there. -.- (which is *very* frustrating, because I found something else for you at the last con that I went to but I've been hanging on to it because I don't know if it'll get lost in the mail. Maybe try copying the address next time you get the chance from something you get in the mailbox? *-* that HAS to work)

Third: my brother is prone to anime/video game girl obsessions, but since his main focus changes every few years, I highly doubt he ever has as strong of a connection as you do to Flandre. Right now it's Hatsune Miku and the Vocaloid franchise...of which he only somehow recently discovered and got into despite being somewhat of an otaku/internet-junkie. He's also extremely introverted and (I don't know if this applies to you or not) ... pretty damn awkward interacting with people. He was never locked inside or anything like that, but somewhere along the line I think he just decided the best company was himself and his games, kind-of perpetually off in his own little world. To my knowledge I don't *think* he ever wondered about suicide and being able to see whoever it was... no, growing up he was always convinced that somehow he'd meet them in person, like they were from an alternate dimension or something. xD

I can see the similarities between you and Flandre for sure, and knowing how you were raised it becomes entirely understandable why you feel such a bond. It's no different than people who grow fond of a character who, for example, was adopted, or has gone through some sort of abuse, or shares some sort of disability (etc) with the reader. Everyone likes it when there's a character they can really relate to on an intimate level like that.

I know whenever I'm playing or watching something, every once in awhile there will be that character where I'm like, "omg, I hope they do ____, or say _____" ... and they DO word for word, and I'm like AWYISS. ... but even that's not nearly so intimate a connection, it just makes me care about them more and grow invested into the story. XD

What it comes down to, ultimately: I don't think your love is harming anyone, and it's not just some strictly sexual thing that would definitely make some people wonder given her obvious body type. Maybe as you get older you'll think of it less... growing up I usually had a character I really liked and felt I could relate to (I'm pretty sure everyone has done this at some point) and... you know, wanted to know everything about them, used their name as my username somewhere and as a nickname irl, etc, etc... I don't really do that anymore.

But, even if you don't stop.. seriously. Embrace it. It's great that you have a character to connect with. As long as you don't become a creepy stalker to a Flandre cosplayer or something, I think it's totally fine. I don't know how many girlfriends you've had, if you're even interested in having one at this point, but, really... there's no rush. You're at a time in your life where you should be focused on yourself and your personal goals, like going through college if you plan on attending, and getting good grades.. and self-discovery.

Man, I can't express that enough. I regret missing that time of my life by (long story short) rushing into some things.. and as a result it isn't until now, nearly ten years later, that I'm going on this personal quest of self-discovery to learn who I really am. As cheesy as it sounds, knowing that is SO important and affects everything that you do...not to mention, your own personal happiness and confidence.

TL;DR: Zx, you're a really cool guy...not to mention, hilarious. It's great that there's a character out there that empowers you, and I don't think you should ever feel ashamed to feel the way that you do. It's harmless to everyone else, even if some might view it as a little peculiar. Thank you for sharing all of this. I hope that as your life goes on and you begin the next chapter, so-to-speak, like college and/or eventually living in your own apartment or what-have-you, you'll continue to learn and grow and gain all that social interaction you've been craving ... but unable to get. It might seem awkward at first or undesirable at times now that the damage has been done, but you'll get there.

I've always seen great things in you, and I have no doubt that others will, too. ♡

Naw Nigga, what the fuck is going on lately.

Fucking hell, the Touhou fanbase is literally just pumping out quality shit lately. Fucking, I just watched a PV showing Kyoto Fantasy Troupe's next project. Which is going to be focusing on the Double Dealing Character: Touhou 14's story.


But then the credits. THE FUCKING CREDITS. They got TAMUSIC AND CREST ON THEIR MUSIC DEPARTMENT

NAW MAN. THAT. THAT IS AN OVERDOSE OF GOOD. THAT IS SO MUCH GOOD. Just straight up. Good.

I am perturbed by the fact that I have an extremely difficult time intergrating mods packs for Artificial Academy. I suck at stuff like this so I usually rely on the internet to help, though the most help I find is ones where they speak list and parts and versions and things MUST be in certain places and stuff. Ugh.

I just want my silly hats pack.

The insurgent has been placed within a governmental facility. The plan is going accordingly Head Priest.



Oh shit, this is the wrong forum!

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Fucking thank you.